White Girl Repatriates to Africa

Damn, this is not something I really like to think about, but I know someone has to. I honestly hate the fact that I have to even think about what color my skin is. It wouldn’t be an issue in my mind if people hadn’t told me to look at it. People think I’m crazy, but I really feel like I relate to and feel patriotic about Africa and not western culture. People don’t take me seriously because of that, like I can’t possibly mean the things I say or understand the things I claim to. Racism and what’s called “post-colonialism” are direct causes of what Mandela refers to as “two features of African life in South Africa…. poverty and lack of dignity.” I am sickened by the way Western Europe has destroyed the lives and wills of billions of people and has touched every inch of the earth with a destructive force. It is not to say that every single person in or descended from the region is an asshole. In my experience, however, I think most white people don’t understand the gravity of their “little biases”. At this point, ignorance is not an excuse. I think Africa needs to be repatriated, especially by the good people living in Babylon, regardless of their color, because they understand how Babylon works and, perhaps, how to fight fire with fire. I think everyone came from Africa and Europe has used it as the continent of resources and resorts for too long. I think that every country involved in colonialism and/or the African slave trade should be paying to develop the continent according to what Africans want. We owe it to them. And don’t ask me where the money would come from! We waste so much of the world’s resources that I’m sure we can figure something out… we always find a way to fund a war. I also don’t want to hear the freedom of choice bullshit…. Like Americans should be able to choose whether to give what they “own” because “freedom is the foundation of the United States.” We are so wasteful and sickeningly fat and spoiled that it’s sinful and we can’t blame starving or oppressed people for being angry at us for not only hoarding resources but also wasting them in a profuse manner while others suffer. Impoverished people (I mean physically and spiritually) don’t have freedom of choice. No one would talk about freedom of choice if they were watching their babies die of starvation and there is NOTHING you can do about it short of cutting off your own toe and feeding it to the emaciated, innocent creature looking up at you with forgiveness (pause to wipe eyes, blow nose). This is real, and every day in America we reap the benefits of other’s suffering. And what do we really get? Dependency on the murderers to keep us comfortable and separate from those we rob, because it’s too hard to accept. So we aren't free either. It’s happening right now, as I’m watching my cable television talk at me about Jeremiah Wright being just some “angry black man”…. I wonder why.